Some months back, a friend of mine prepared and gave me some cds that contained songs from the past. We definitely share a love for the old tunes! One of the cds contained some of Anne Murray's all time best. One of these is You Needed Me, recoreded in 1978. This particular song was a favorite then and, hearing it now, it has taken on a whole new meaning. I cried the first time I played it a few months ago because it was no longer a love song between a man and a woman; it had become a love song between my God and me.
I cried a tear, you wiped it dry
I was confused, you cleared my mind
I can not count the number of tears I have cried: tears of sadness and tears of joy. As a young child I cried for the dad I never knew, for the brothers who were raised by relatives, for the abuse my mother received from my step-father, and for the rejection I felt. I cried at the birth of each of my children... tears of shear joy!
Growing up was most difficult. I was looking for a God I knew existed, but I did not know where to find Him. I felt so unworthy. Surely something was not right with me or I would have had what others seemed to have had: a God they could worship. I was so confused... why could I not share in this ultimate relationship?
I sold my soul, you bought it back for me
And held me up and gave me dignity
Somehow you needed me
I made so many mistakes along the path of life. I seemed to compound mistakes without thinking. And then one day, He found me, right in the midst of the most troublesome time of my life. He found me and He needed me. I couldn't contain the joy! That was in December of 1974.
You gave me strength to stand alone again
To face the world out on my own again
You put me high upon a pedestal
So high that I could almost see eternity
You needed me, you needed me
Life
did not become rosy and without pain, but it did become amazing. The Lord had
found me in the midst of a dark time and gave me light. He loved me. He held me
up. He became my rock. As the years passed, there were fantastic moments when
all seemed well and there were times when darkness swallowed me, but He was
there.
And I can't believe it's true
I needed You and You were there
And I'll never leave; why should I leave?
I'd be a fool 'cause I finally found someone who cares.
The
God who created the universe loves me... When I thought I could not continue,
He was there.
You
held my hand when it was cold
When
I was lost you took me homeYou gave me hope when I was at the end
And turned my lies back into truth again
You even called me "friend"
Friend,
a person with whom to walk: I needed that and still do. I do not fear that this
friend will turn His back. This friend sticks closer than a brother. He truly
gives me hope!
You
gave me strength to stand alone again
Several
times in my life I have been faced with uncertainty; and, each time, He has
given me more strength than I thought possible...
To
face the world out on my own again
When
all hope seemed gone and darkness filled my days, He was there. The deaths of
my sons, becoming a single parent, and seeing the near destruction of another
son nearly crushed all hope, but He gave me strength.
You
put me high upon a pedestal
So
high that I could almost see eternity
You
needed me, You needed me.
You
needed me, You needed me
I
wish I could tell the whys, but I must rest in His Word. He is busy with a
transformation and, in the end, I will be, truly, His friend. He showed me in a
dream, years ago, the answers to my whys, but upon awakening, all I could
remember is that I knew... A friend has said that it was a blessing to have the
memory of reasons why erased, and I believe that this is true. It is enough to
know He needed me, and He was there.
I
hope you will listen and enjoy.
